110910 , action speaks louder than words .
Like damn all these .
You see ,
Being in a fam , does not mean , you can quit when theres trouble .
You all like that fun uh .
Good times stay on ,
Bad times first one run .
Good la .
Really .
Just go away .
And maybe I caused too much trouble ,
Then you all are angry at me .
Scared of me .
Fed up with me .
Wish I could just die .
Well , I wish that too ,
Don't worry .
I'm so sorry .
Okay ?
I really wanted to start all this again you know ,
But then really ,
Having them is just enough ,
When even the members thinks like this ,
it means its official .
Maybe you all think I'm treating this like a joke .
I'm not .
Maybe you all think I'm seeking attention .
I'm not .
Maybe you all think I abuse my authority so much ,
Probably I do .
Maybe you all think I suck ,
Yeah I sure do .
You all happy now ?
I even had nightmares of PWM ,
I dreamt of PWM at night .
Okay ?
THATS HOW MUCH ITS ON MY MIND .
Dreams , psychologically as reflections of the subconscious .
As a Scorpio , you constantly surprise people by being what they least expect .
Like me yesterday huh .
I went to become so harsh and such a big meanie and annoyance compared to always appearing off and whatever .
I know it myself thanks .
But I finally know what you all are like already .
Like what , if just a fam member tells you got channel ,
You just fool around , maybe I come later .
Then when a jr speaked up ,
You , " got channel !? "
Bias treatment yo (Y) .
I don't regret what I did yesterday ,
Maybe I do ,
Being such an irritating person I myself don't like .
Is so annoying .
But I don't regret seeing you all like this .
It was fun .
You know why I always appear offline and keep quiet most of the time .
I'M SCARED .
I don't like to make my existence known .
I don't like people to think I'm annoying .
Like I consider if I should say something a not .
Like will I offend you all ?
Will you all think I'm a horrible person ?
Will you all hate me ?
Low profile yo .
Yesterday ,
Was me ,
But totally out of my usual character .
See , thats why nobody believed I was pepper .
I was so different .
Maybe being different is good .
I'm so sick of being treated this way .
And ,
Don't be a jerk then come be emo elmo .
I cried cause of your words .
Then you made me guilty for being like this .
You act like you're guilty ,
Then you changed overnight .
So who is the real you now .
I don't like guessing so can you tell me .
I want the old days back though it will never happen at all .
What , then now , you see the standard of the people ,
It sucks .
IT SUCKS .
IT SUCKS IT SUCKS IT SUCKS .
OR MAYBE I'M JUST JEALOUS .
AND THE ONE WHO IS NOT HAPPY WITH EVERYTHING .
BUT I DON'T CARE .
GO AWAY .
And ,
If you think I'm talking about you ,
You can think so ,
Might not be you .
And , don't tell me sorry .
Like I heard enough already .
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