100113.
I actually got mixed feelings.
Hm how say leh.
It's like, I honestly was so scared I would get more than 20 for my r4.
I got.. not too bad I guess!
I passed all my subjects.
Thank god..
EVEN SCIENCE.
Like please SCIENCE.
I think I could have done better.
That's what everybody is saying to me too LOL.
Like I honestly didn't study.. much.
It's like oh I reach home today I on my com.
Or else I go macs.. and slack.
Or.. stare at my book and find something else to do.
Ohoh.
Study the day before the paper right, just flip through the book.
Yeah.
I feel so undeserving of my points now otl.
If I actually studied I would have done better.
But oh well!
I'm really lazy, like climbing up the overhead bridge scares me cause it's too tiring.
No point saying I would have studied more because I really won't, unless I retake la.
honestly i'm too lazy to do anything.
I just fell into this. nua state.
What else ah.
Ohoh.
I need legit advice on what courses to put and all.
Anyone?
I don't feel anything for my results..
MEH.
It's like oh there ok.
How ah.
I feel like I should be feeling sad.
Maybe I am.
I don't even know it's like oh meh.
ok.
You know.
I thought about it.
I can't handle pressure.
So I do things my way.
Which includes not studying because I will stress the hell out.
And then if I don't score well.
People won't have high expectations of me.
..
I won't feel good but.
Then I just want it to be that way subconsciously..
I will always ask myself why do people look down on me..
But actually it's me myself who is doing things on purpose (I'm not sure..) to make people look down on me.
Like I scared more of my Chinese results more than my O's results because.. There were people who expected something from me.
I was nervous like hell.
Today.. I wasn't that nervous..
Wait.. Is this why..?
I don't know.
My theory.
If people don't have high expectations of me, I won't be pressurized.
And I won't disappoint people.
One of the things I'm most afraid of is to disappoint people.
I'm scared of disappointing even my doctor who probably don't give a damn about me unless I go see him again because my ear isn't any better than the time I went to see him.
He don't really care, but I'm scared of disappointing him.
He is not even going to be disappointed.
Yeah.
So the point is.
If people don't have high expectations of me, I would be able to please them with medicore results.
Yeah.
I guess this is what it is.
So I won't disappoint them, and thus I won't be pressured.
Yeah.
糖果罐里好多颜色 微笑却不甜了
Omg.
Neopets.
Petpet Park, I got 1,184 (?) np.
Wheel of Slime, I got 2,000 np
Fruit Machine, I got 2,500 np
Forgotten Shore, I got 2,500 np
Winter Kisok Scratchcard, I got 2,500 np
Wheel of Excitment, I got 500 np.
Qasalan Expellibox, I got 100 np which is pretty rare.
Kreludor Meteor, I got prize the first time I hit it.
Tombola, I was a winner.
Turdle Racing, I bet on Turdle 5 and won 13,500.
Now I got 30,000 to save sia..
Usually if lucky got 10,000..
!! Happyhappy!
Thank you!
WOW.
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