Hello, I'm Jazel. I'm on most social media platforms as @JazelTWY. I have had this space since 2008, and I see it as a outlet for my thoughts, when short status updates or instagram captions won't cut it. It's a public private space, of sorts. Comments?




Sometimes i feel like i can just die the next moment and i won't really feel sad.
Is it true that your life will flash past you those few seconds you have left of your life?

is it good that my thoughts go both ways and then it considers every single possibility?
I like to believe that I have a very wild imagination, it's wild enough for me to imagine everything that could happen.

I don't like it sometimes.
It makes me a really indecisive person.

Is it selfish of me?
Or is it just me thinking too much?
I wonder if anybody thinks the same way about this situation or is it me that is pouring too much thought into it?
I don't want it yet I feel horrible for not wanting it to happen.
Am I a bad person?
I feel really bad.

I know not everybody sees the same way as I do.
I wonder why.
Don't they think in the different perspectives this situation has to offer?
.. Does that make them a worse person?
I don't really know what I'm typing, really.

Constricted feeling in my chest again.
I don't like it.
It's when I feel sad and all the pent up emotions are banging and asking to be released.
It feels hard to breathe, I feel sad when I breathe.
It doesn't feel good.

It feels like I'm breathing in and out guilt and horrible, horrible emotions and it's telling me that I'm a bad person.


Anyway. On a happy note~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JAEJOONG!!!
AGAIN.
It's the 4th of Feb! Your real birthday~
I hope you have a wonderful day today, and the days ahead.
I love you ♥♥♥


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