Hello, I'm Jazel. I'm on most social media platforms as @JazelTWY. I have had this space since 2008, and I see it as a outlet for my thoughts, when short status updates or instagram captions won't cut it. It's a public private space, of sorts. Comments?



I think I been losing more parts of myself ever since I started poly.
I don't know.
I just don't like the feeling of this uncertainty.

My ask.fm.
Argh.
It started off as something fun before it started spinning out of control.
I don't know why people find joy in doing these.
I just hate it so much.
I feel like I'm being made fun of.
Really. Thanks ya'll.
I just want normal questions.....................
If I see a normal question out of everything I just get so happy.
I'm so bloody desperate.
I don't even know why I check it everyday.
It was amusing at first..
Gotta stop.
Bloody torturing myself.

So basically now I'm just moping around feeling so damn bloody lost.
You know what? SAC wasn't even half as bad even with all the shit that came along with O's.
Now I'm just hoping for some company of my friends.
Good ol' comfortable company.
And I can't even bloody meet up with anybody because we are all living our lives differently now.

I miss briends a lot.
Is it bad to be so attached?
I think a day with them can make a week not seem so bad.
Or maybe a few hours.
Just a few hours and I'm contented.
Just comfortable company....

Why is it so hard?
Or am I just making life hard for myself?

Class isn't bad though.
It's good, in fact.
Thank god I'm in this class.

Today wasn't that good at all.
Woke up with a headache and because of that I couldn't go back to sleep.
I just felt so bloody sick.
My nose ain't helping.
Bloated before dinner and I don't even know why cause I didn't eat.
Ate dinner and then it went downhill.
Urgh.


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