We’ll live like a weed that perseveres through everything
rather than a flower that withers away quickly.
It's always my fault, isn't it?
Hello, I'm Jazel. I'm on most social media platforms as @JazelTWY. I have had this space since 2008, and I see it as a outlet for my thoughts, when short status updates or instagram captions won't cut it. It's a public private space, of sorts.
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I have no idea how many times I have blogged about this but...
Sigh.
It's one thing that always haunts me.
Friends.
Actually, do I even have friends?
You know, all I feel is that I'm like this sad lonely kid.
Am I just thinking that way or is it really true?
Do you all have a friend that you can ask to go out with you to do absolutely anything, like the most random things ever and he/she will just agree?
I don't.
Like I want to watch a movie and I don't even know who to ask to watch with me now because I'm basically out of friends.
The friends I used to go out with, they have their own close friends now.
My new set of friends, they have their old close friends they hang out with always.
They all have friends.
I don't know if they want to go out with me.
Am I harping too much on the past and am the only one not moving on?
Am I surrounding my life around these friends I have that I'm limiting myself from all the possibilities?
Or maybe is it just me that nobody wants to go out with.
Rejection hurts, you know.
Why do I even bother asking when I know it's a hopeless cause.
I know I won't get a positive answer and yet I still go ahead and ask.
Why why why?
Going to sleep with a heavy heart I guess, with an issue that seems like it will never be resolved.