Hello, I'm Jazel. I'm on most social media platforms as @JazelTWY. I have had this space since 2008, and I see it as a outlet for my thoughts, when short status updates or instagram captions won't cut it. It's a public private space, of sorts. Comments?



Today is 29th February 2016!
This date won't come by until another 4 years...
And it's also my last day of freedom...
Till August 31st.
Wow :')

I basically lied on my sofa the entire day.
No joke.
I only moved to get food.
Then at night I started feeling horrible.
Then I scrolled twitter.
Felt worse.
I scrolled instagram and that was it.

I looked through my profile,
and I noticed one thing: I am always smiling in photos that has my face in it.
There isn't any photos (with my face) without me smiling.
I am selective in posting a photo, and I only post photos that I think looks nice.
And I think I look horrible when I don't smile.
That's when I thought about this:
Instagram doesn't document my entire life.
It doesn't document moments I don't want people to see.
There are so many people who said that you shouldn't trust everything you see on social media.

"That couple's life might look perfect but really, they fight everyday."

That's basically me too, in the aspect that I put on a created image of myself on social media???
I want people to see the side of me I want them to see.
I won't ever post an unglam, because it's not who I want people to perceive me to be.
I want to create this persona of who Jazel is, and how happy I am.

And somehow that's really depressing...



Wow. I actually had the urge to blog because I felt terrible about myself, which was basically what was all written above.
The irony was that I posted a picture on instagram, and then my friends cheered me up.
Cass sent me recordings of her talking and like wow I immediately felt so much better.
I just have to constantly remind myself there are people who will always come through for me.
Yes.
Yes.
Yes.



Ok now this post doesn't make anymore sense but in short:
lazed the entire day > felt sad after scrolling social media (lol @ me) > better now because of angels who exist on this world


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