the sky is your limit.

We’ll live like a weed that perseveres through everything

rather than a flower that withers away quickly.

Hello, I'm Jazel. I'm on most social media platforms as @JazelTWY. I have had this space since 2008, and I see it as a outlet for my thoughts, when short status updates or instagram captions won't cut it. It's a public private space, of sorts. Comments?

(I know it's been a month and I'm damn late but........ it's jazel. can't expect much LOL)

Let's pretend it was posted on 12th May yay!

Going to backdate this post :D

So, the day is here.

I graduated!

3 years in Temasek Polytechnic has passed.

It has its ups and downs, but I would say it's been a pretty good 3 years.

There were just so many memories made here.

It's quite weird that I have officially graduated, no longer a poly student, (oh god worst part is no more concession I swear)......

I'm thankful to have forged memories with so many people in IIT/TP, no matter good or bad.
Would look back to these days and wish I can be back doing my poly life again, for sure.
... We only realize how great a phase of our lives is after it's over/not part of our lives any longer.
Isn't it funny of humans?

Going to break this post into segments, then alphabetical order (I try...)

And guys. Just so you know, I have like touching messages in my head and I can't seem to get them into words. I never do... I feel like I can't repay everybody's love enough. You all take the time to come down for my grad (+ others), and then what? I repay you all with a message that doesn't even sound horribly touching... I should be writing every single one of you an 1000 words essay because you all deserve that and more...

Please just know that, from the bottom of my heart, I sincerely really really really appreciate every single one of you.

Family,

Thanks for coming down for my grad, with the balloons and flowers. :')

Appreciate the support throughout these 3 years.

I'm the first kid in the family to be in the poly, so I'm sure you two didn't know what to expect.

Like... I don't share academic things with you all for sure, I never liked to because I don't accomplish shit.

So like you all hear bits and pieces and then try to piece things together.

For example, I am like year 2 and you all would think I'm still year 1 cause you both aren't aware of how the semesters and terms are split.

Hahaha, but thanks for being amazing nevertheless.

And, my sis waited two hours outside for the ceremony to be over haha, thanks :')

Lecturers who inspire :')

Thank you Mr Alfred, for everything.

I wasn't the most impressionable student.

My results aren't that amazing, I was relatively quiet in class - I'm always distracted by other things.

But somehow you saw something in me!!

Haha, thank you for shortlisting me for OSIP - I still dk why.

It wasn't the best time of my life, because of the company sadly, but it's still 3 months I want to experience again. It was a good 3 months, got to experience lots of things, all thanks to you for encouraging me to go.

It's also because of this that I managed to intern at ocbc for the 4 months before Japan, and that has opened doors for me.

I like how you are keeping your students as friends, it's really pretty cool! Waiting for you to pop by ocbc for the photo I didn't manage to get during grad day!! Soon right? With the next batch of interns coming in :')

Ms How.

My LO!

I was/am pretty scared of you, honestly. But you are a honest and good lecturer, who is really concerned about your students, and I appreciate it. Sadly this realization came only in year 3 HAHA, didn't get to interact much with you before that anyway.

But thank you, for showing your care and concern in your own ways :')

Ms Thomas Mary, whom I never had the pleasure of meeting. Thank you for the emails that comes in occasionally. It's sad to see you apologizing for sending emails, because there's no need to apologize. It helps, when you send encouraging and motivational messages across. Like that day I was having the most stressful day at work, and an email from you came in with the subject "You'll be fine." You don't know how much that helped, really... so thankful to still be able to receive these emails even after I graduated, I dread the day it stops...

My fellow graduates,

I wish I could have taken photos with so many more people but it was cray cray man :((

傻逼，一个两个

Thank you for the past 3 years.

For helping me with my work, assignments, pushing me to meet datelines, bringing new experiences to me and making my poly life just amazing.

I love it when we get to go sing k hehe, all the Chinese songs :')

I hope we can continue to meet up often, please don't disappear so soon....

JM IS ALREADY LEAVING OMG IHFIJHDFJIKASHKFS.

From Year 1 to 3, I'm so thankful that we managed to stick together.

Even outings with you bunch is different, you guys spice up my life!!!

Will miss those days in ITAS at our round table (even tho I hate the place still..), and you guys always going to macs or engine automatically :')

I want upgraded picnic again!! (Actually I just miss the massage chair..)
KIDDING.

I love you all.

... guys it's damn weird typing English omg.

Like we had moments where we will be like "

''Okok English English."

*awkward silence..*

"ok so!!"

"*cue next conversation in Chinese*"

HAHAHA.

Who changed the most HAHAHAHA

Jing ah, we are like the bottom 2 in the group (the other 3 all too smart.... we cannot fight...)

Hahaha, and you being always next to me makes me feel happy :')

Like even graduation, we were together!!!

Talking to you is easy man, please stop being worried about everything, you are amazing and you can work magic :')

Jiamin, you're the yolo one, and it's damn cool (wth typing in English is damn weird HAHA)

And in some ways we are similar, (is it just the height...) hehehee.

YOU ARE DAMN SKINNY I CANNOT LIVE..................

Thank god you started not liking to eat at ITAS, if not 4 against 1 I would die with ITAS food :(

Don't forgot us when you go Australia and study :(((

Regina b, thanks for always being there when I need you. :')

You are crazy and yet the same time one of the most amazing person to be with.

Rly damn gay u....

Summer, gold medalist....

You're too smart... you spoil market!!!

HAHAHA.

Please faster graduate and get married, must invite me ok!!!

The future ahead of you is damn bright :')

Didn't manage to take a full group shot cause Summer was too busy taking selfies with the director and Regina had to rush off :(

LUCKY WE HAD OUR ''PHOTOSHOOT" HAHAHAHA even tho we died under the sun.

Adibah!! It's been really nice knowing you when we rowed as freshies during regatta,

Glad that we became friends, and while we don't talk often, we could always hold a conversation :')

Happy grad to you too!

Geraldine!!

One of my first friends in Poly, from Zaefic :')

Oh god, I'm glad we managed to get this picture!!!!

We didn't keep in touch after the first sem of year 1, but it's still pretty cool seeing you around school.

The thought that you, Cindy and Kerri were one of my first friends in poly and now we have finally graduated!?!?

Happy graduation to you, too!

HANNNNNAH!! Thanks for coming down with a slice of ur cake HAHAHAHA

BEING UR FRIEND = GOOD STUFF :)

Starbucks.. Lady M Crepe Cakes... hehe.

Kidding.

I was really happy to see you!!!!!

I appreciate you, and all the times you listened to me and offered me sound advice.

Somehow we always end up in similar situations it's quite scary.

Can't thank you enough for everything, I'm glad I always have in friend in you.

Still wish I could have attended your graduation, :(

Now... what's next...

THE GORGEOUS CAKE.

HUI QING.

MANAGED TO GET A PICTURE WITH U HAHAHAHAHA.

Someone was too busy taking individual shots at the white wall ah.

HAHAHAHA, your poor friend!!!!

hehe been really nice knowing you through Phantom, you're hella cool :D

Justin, thank you for everything.

Happy graduation to you, too :')

Lin Wei. See u around my workplace ok I promise I will take more flyers...

KIDDING SOMEONE ARMY LO.

HAHAHAHA.

Been really nice meeting you from Laguz, even though you're full of nonsense... you're cool :'')

MERVIN.

Since Heous days bruh, and now we're here!

Long way man.

Happy graduation to you, and I'll bring you to Lola's...!!

HAHAHA.

QI RONG!!

HAHAHA!
We haven't gotten to having dinner yet... AND IT'S MY FAULT!!
I KNOW!!

I'll text u OK HAHAHA.

Sam! We're now graduating poly together.

Kindergarten, primary school and now from IIT @ TP!

The path we're both taking next is different because... you smartass...

HAHAHA.

It's awesome to be able to share embarrassing photos of you and then telling people we knew each other since kindergarten, it's really really cool :')

Taury Chen...

Hahaha :') 3 years man.

Really glad to have developed our friendship in IIT.

Being ur friend got benefits, like you asking me if I want to buy stuff...

But at the same time, it sucks because u always making me spend money wth IS IT NECESSARY :(

Thanks for listening to me rant countless of times (I heard you rant a lot of times too so we're even!)

We do (try to) put up with each other nonsense and frustrating moments, but it's part and parcels of being friends, and that's ok :')

Freshies I took as an OL T_____T (feels weird calling ya'll my freshies cause LOOK AT HOW MUCH YOU ALL HAVE GROWN but it's ok U ALL ARE ALWAYS MY FRESHIES)

GUAN XIANG.

THANK YOU FOR THE BEAR.

I was damn shocked PLS omg I didn't expect anything legit YOUR PRESENCE WOULD HAVE BEEN ENOUGH.

My dear Dreknus freshie, you already know how proud I am to see how much you have grown.

Thank you for making me feel important and stuff, you always do. :')

I swear like wow I never felt like I could make an impact/difference in someone's life until you came along and tell me nice things about myself I don't see.

I would say you do inspire me to be better :')

I would be there next year for your grad, legit if not u can shove this post at my face OK.

Suzanna, my dear Laguz B freshie :')

Thank you for the emicake pudding and the flower you got together with Annie, and for coming down t_t.

I didn't expect to see you AND YOU APPEARED T__T.

Thank you for remembering me!!!!!!!

I'm really happy to see you become an OL yourself, and I know you did an amazing job, and would continue to do so for the next two years.

Really proud of you, continue to make laguz b proud :')

and you're really damn cute ah HAHAHA.

Nicole, Khai, Allie, Syarifah and Dominic, my final batch of freshies from Phantom 4. :')

Thank you for coming over just for me, and for the blue rose (it's my favorite color!! - they were saying cause represents IIT hahaha so cute) and the famous amos cookies (I welcome food anytime of the day)

You all just entered school and I'm leaving it.

Feels weird (and old)...

I hope your poly journey will be a fun and fruitful one, and that only good things will come out of the next 3 years :')

I believe ya all will become OLs too *hint hint* because you all can :')

Amazing humans I had the pleasure of meeting throughout the 3 years :')

Annie!!
Thank you for the emicake pudding & flower you got together with Suzanna hehehe.
I haven't known you for long, but it's great to have met you from db!!
All the best in school man - I'll see you when the season starts!! (i think..................... the sun is pretty terrible...)

eh dude.

thanks for being such a bro man.

You were easy to talk to from the very beginning, and I'm glad to have met you.

It's always nice to meet someone who thinks in the same wavelength as you :')

Really.

+ I love sibei on people and you're damn on la.

HAHAHA.

Cheryll hehehe.

My dragonboat vc :'), the year we got a silver.

Thanks for the tough love hehe.

Derek!!

This is weird cause we were never close...

BUT THANKS FOR THE FLOWERS I was really surprised LOL like wow why did Derek get me a flower!!!!!!?!?!?!?

Thanks man HAHAHA

Ernest, one of the dreknar freshies :')

Now you're so siao on with FO and all................

WOW HAHAHAHAHA.

AND CHEY ACTUALLY U DIDN'T THINK OF TAKING PIC WITH ME ONE RIGHT.

Jaz!!

HAHAHAHA.

We share the first 3 letters of our names, and the love for the color blue :')

(Tho I probably won't dye my entire head blue, even tho I love the color to death)

It's damn cool to have gotten to know you better in db!!

HAHAHA. You cutie pie with those dimples, I'll see you around :')

Kai Xiong!! HAHA!

We met when I was year 1, and now... wow.

Army must be treating you real good!

Thanks for being my part-time photographer and stuff carrier (TO BE FAIR U OFFERED!!)

HAHA!

You take good photos (and so do I...) :D

Sheryl you gotta stop being so pretty HAHAHA

Thank you all for the gorgeous flowers/bears/balloons/cake/cookies/pudding, and most importantly, the love. :')

(step one gold medalist)

And guys.. it's the end.

I might not know what I want to do with my life next or what actually do I want to pursue in life.

I have been told it's alright to not know what I want to do at 20, heck, you're still young.

But it's scary, because I still have to make a decision, and it's going to impact my future paths.

Do I further my education? What degree am I going to take up?

Or should I take a gap year and work? What do I want to work as - will what I work as be useful for my future?

All these questions, I have no answer to.

It's quite scary and pressurizing seeing my friends have a clear goal in life.

While their goals might change in the future, because nobody knows what the future holds, at least it's a goal they can work towards.

I really am not sure what I want.

It's worrying because I feel so empty.

... guys it's scary. :(

It's an open-ended route with no right answers, now that I graduated from Poly.

But yet, the moment you go on the wrong path, you would need time to go back to the starting point, or else try to find your way off that wrong path.

But for now, I'm a Temasek Poly graduate, holder of a Diploma in Financial Business Informatics.

That's what this post is about, isn't it?

Happy graduation, everybody. Do treasure your school years, my juniors :')

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