We’ll live like a weed that perseveres through everything
rather than a flower that withers away quickly.
It's always my fault, isn't it?
Hello, I'm Jazel. I'm on most social media platforms as @JazelTWY. I have had this space since 2008, and I see it as a outlet for my thoughts, when short status updates or instagram captions won't cut it. It's a public private space, of sorts.
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Happy birthday to me.
What a year 2020 has been.
With how... different? this year gotten, I actually let go, and dropped the ball on many things. Mostly connections, actually.
I honestly found myself not having the energy putting in the same amount of effort I used to in the past. Not sure how that worked out, but that’s how I felt - like I really just let go and let things happen the way it’s meant to happen without additional effort on my end.
I would say it’s a very liberating feeling. I didn’t feel the need to be in control, and I really let things run its course.
I also lowered my expectations in a lot of things and, actually I would say that worked out perfect. I let myself be surprised, and didn’t overthink things.
Actually not sure if I lost anything large in particular this year (previous years I was always kicking myself over things that I felt went wrong). But I definitely felt like friendships that I wanted to keep were strengthened.
Idk. I just feel like things are falling into place. After all, all things happen for a reason right? Waiting for my next door to open, but maybe it does require me to push around a little bit, which I haven’t been doing...